God is Great!

First of all, God is great because it is Friday of my first week back at school. Never thought it would get here. I love the weekend. Tonight Michael and I are going to look at furniture. We have no idea what we want to buy, but I can't wait to look.

Also, God just provides for his children. My churh is having something called Christmas in February and we have been challenged to give a weeks salary. Well, not only is that normally hard, but when you aren't getting paid, it is especially hard. When I got my last paycheck, I never wrote it down to see if we could save it for later. Then last Sunday I was convicted because that money was only 12 dollars short of what Michael and I get paid for a week....HMMM. So I was going to give the money and just pray hard that we could make it. I had one more bill to pay this month and then we would be ok. So day before yesterday, I got a check in the mail from Honda for the amount almost to the dollar to pay that last bill. God is so faithful.

After all I have been through, why would I ever doubt that God would provide for us. He has been with us through everything and there are days that I doubt. Why? Something to ponder today!!

OH Me Oh My!!

Hello All------This will be an extremely short blog considering last night at 11 I decided to clean my house so I could come home and go to see Trey.........Yeah, ask me what time I got there..5:25.

Why do I put so much pressure on myself to finish everything to a T before I go home from school? Is school going anywhere? NO! Will it be there tomorrow? Absolutely. So my new goal is to go to school early. Exercise at 2:50. Pump...my favorite thing. Then go home. I enjoy my job and I know the Lord commands us to do our best for Him, but my family also needs me. The Lord is first with my family 2nd. Then my job. So tomorrow, I am going to try to be home much earlier. Say a prayer for Trey today to eat well and do great with Jenny.

Back to School

This morning, I am feeled with an overwhelming since of dread. On Monday, I will return to my job after being on maternity leave for 14 weeks. My time with Trey has been so precious. I love watching him sleep and talking with him when he is awake. It is amazing to see the smile he gives when he doesn't want his bottle. It melts my heart. I am so in love with my child. There is nothing I wouldn't do to make things easier for him.

Having said this, I realize that I may not have put my whole heart into my job. I sometimes tend to be sarcastic with the children and I am not as loving as I should be to these children that have so little. I am anxious to return to my students to see if motherhood has made the difference that I think it may have. I want my son's teachers to treat him with love and kindness. Can I say that I do that with my students? No, I can't say that I did before Trey. I pray I will after Trey. What a difference a child will make in your life. (Jesus is a good example!) My goal and prayer for the remainder of this year and for the years to come is to treat each student with the love and respect that I want Trey treated with. I hope that I will be a better teacher now that I have a child of my own.

The next thought that come into my head is do we treat Christ with the love and respect He deserves?? He gave his only son, Jesus, to die for a sinful world. A world that uses His name in vain and takes advantage of His grace. Grace that He gives us freely, when all we have to do is ask, because His precious son died on a horrific, yet beautiful cross. Having a son, I know that at the beginning, middle and end of every day, I should shout as loud as I can "thank you" to God for giving His son for a undeserved world. Also I should show Christ love and respect to my children as well because I represent Christ here on earth and the sacrifice He made for me. I may not be the best representative, but upon writing this, I am going to make every effort to show Christ love through me. I hope you will too.

My Valentine

I thought since it was the day after Valentine's, I would show my sweet Valentine. Michael, Trey and I went to Greenville to pick up a cookie cake that Trey got his daddy for Valentines. On our way back we went to Outback and got take out. It was a pretty uneventful night. Hope you enjoy looking at my sweet baby. Check out his shirt. It is too cute!

My Miracle

Hey all, well, my crazy sister has gone and got hip on us. She created a blog and got my husband hooked.........so now I have to have one if he does. I think it will be fun. I am sure there will be plenty for me to write about.

I just had a precious baby boy on November 18, 2005. He is a spectacular miracle that the Lord has blessed me with. On July 6, the day we thought we would see our sweet baby on an ultrasound to find the sex, we found that he had a congenital heart defect called Truncus Arteriosus. Basically with this defect a person's pulmonary artery is coming off of his aorta instead of the left side and there is also a hole called a Ventricular Septal Defect (VSD). This was by far was one of the worst days of my life, but it led to such a wonderful miracle--Trey.

When a fantastic pediatric cardiologist told us about Trey's heart, he prayed with us and just had the touch with dealing with parents. After meeting with him, another doctor came in and told me I needed to have an amnio. He said that if Trey had certian chromosomal defects, they wouldn't operate on him or fix him because he would die anyway. This was like the world had ended and I was torn with what to do. It was on that day that I gave my child to the Lord. I told God that He had created Trey and he was only on loan to us for a while. I cried a lot that day, but I also found refuge in the Lord. The following day, I called the pediatric cardiologist that had prayed with us the day before and asked his opinion on an amnio. While I waited for him to call, I cried out the Lord to help me make the decision. I asked God to be loud and clear. As I prayed this, our dr called. He told me that for me an amnio was not necesssary at this time. This answer to prayer was the beginning of a growing experience for me with the Lord. I learned that He is in control and if we trust Him, He will "lead us through the valley".

Trey is doing so well today. He weighed 6 lb. 13 oz. when he was born. He is now weighing around 10 pounds. He also has a chromosomal defect called DiGeorge Syndrome. This is a very broad syndrome. There can be many or few problems. We wait and see what will happen, but we trust the Lord to take care of us and Trey as we see what's in store.

I am so blessed to have my family. As Trey was in the hospital for 26 days 4 hours from home, we saw more compasion and love from our friends and family than we can ever imagine possible. I am so blessed to have a wonderful christian husband who is so strong and amazing. He loves Trey more than life and I love to watch them together. I knew Michael would be a wonderful dad, but he has surpassed all my ideas of him as a father. Also, I am fortunate to have christian parents and a sister and brother in law. They have two wonderful boys who I love like they were my own children. God is so good and has blessed me beyond measure.

I love being a mother....although it is the hardest job I have ever had. How do you know what to do when they cry and in our case, we have to look after how much Trey eats. Never ending worry. He is just a little adult........sometimes he just isn't hungry!! Anyway, hope you enjoy reading this. If you don't well oh well. I am sure I will post often because unfortunately, I go back to work on Monday....That is a whole other message!!!